Bon Jovi is currently in my CD player, Crossroads, the best of album from 1994.
I remember when I was about seven years old, maybe eight, and I took this album from my mother's CD collection. That christmas I got my first CD player as well as my first acoustic guitar. I was going to be a rockstar, either a guitarist or a lead singer, it didn't matter what but all I knew is I wanted to be a rockstar.

All my friends were going to be Spice Girls, don't get me wrong, I loved the Spice Girls but I played the whole "my favourite bands write their own music" elitist draw card at the early age of eight. I remember dancing and singing along to "Livin' On A Prayer" but my favourite was always "Someday I'll Be Saturday Night." That was the first time I knew about musics try meaning, why we have music. It told a story of people doing it tough, living on the streets, being abused but constantly working so they could get to their "saturday night", there time to shine, when life would be good to them. Even though I was just a kid, I got it. I understood. I had this epiphany, I was going to change people's lives with my music.

Ten years on, I'm still trying to write the music I've always wanted to write and I think I am finally getting there. I am playing in a band called The Lolitas and we are recording our first real demo tomorrow but I am writing stuff for myself to record as a solo artist. I didn't think I would be able to do it but I in the past six months I have awakened something in me that makes me believe I can.

In my previous blogs, I have mentioned that I was starting to meditate. Since then, my meditation practices have exceeded my own expectations and helping me to forget limitations. I have become a channel and I am learning to release the pain and the heartache I have carried with me for all these years. My pen has been working overtime, to the point I am writing in my sleep! My poetry is now turning into songs, with the help of my beautiful guitars that are instilled with love. I've learnt how to be balanced and how to release.

For the first time in my life, I believe I am truly happy. I know what love is, I know what life is. "I am taking each day a night at a time," and I couldn't be happier. I have almost lost 10kgs as well. I have no limitations anymore and I am reaching beyond what I thought I ever could.

Much love and light,
Kayla.xx

Ps. Get ready for many, many submissions.